Feeling uber emotional!!

I'm having a super emotional morning. I keep tearing up. I could blame it on my monthly visitor coming but that usually isn't a big deal. I was looking at facebook and one of my friends just announced that she is expecting and having a Thanksgiving baby! That's great news and I'm very happy for her but it hit me kinda hard because I'm supposed to be having a Thanksgiving baby!! I got pregnant in February and miscarried last month. I started spotting on April 10th and thankfully I had my first OB appointment scheduled for the very next day. They found a sac but couldn't even see a baby and told me that I am miscarrying. I've always had a hard time getting pregnant but never had any problem once I got pregnant. I had no idea what to expect and I got worried when they prescribed me THREE bottles of 800mg motrin. I was also worried because we were leaving the very next morning to go to my Aunt's funeral in Northern Utah. I was literally miscarrying at my Aunt's funeral! I can't say that was a great day. I was truly very blessed because it was just like a very bad period. I really am ok because I feel that it's going to happen. It's just disappointing because it took almost a year to get pregnant. And it just stinks because I had a due date and had started planning and then all of a sudden, it's not there. And it hits me everytime I hear of a new pregnancy and it seems like everyone I know is getting pregnant!! But it's ok. I am comforted. My time will come. I just don't want it to take too long because I am getting OLD!!! I thought we were done with my 3rd but he came and I still didn't feel done. Travis and I went to the temple and prayed about it and we know we are supposed to have a 4th. Even though it scares the daylights out of me to be responsible for that many kids and financially pay for that many kids, we know that there is a little spirit up there wanting to come to our family! And really who could blame him/her? :) I just don't want to be too old of a Mama! And after going through this, I really don't know why it's normal for people to not tell of their pregnancies just in case of a miscarriage. Why? That just means you go through this while your friends have no idea that you are going through something!! It's hard to say and very hard to just bring up in conversation. It's not like you can say, "Hey....guess what!!" So I needed to put my thoughts and feelings down while I'm going through it and later when I'm expecting our 4th, I can look back and it will all just be a memory. I know everything will be alright....just later than we first thought.